You Tell Me

You tell me I do not have to always change everything,
I wonder if you know all the things I accept,
You tell me I should find my own way,
I wonder if you know how long I walked alone,
You tell me I should do for myself,
I wonder what I am not doing right.

You tell me I am pretty,
I wonder when you saw me last,
You tell me I am smart,
I wonder if you see what I see,
You tell me my voice is heaven,
I wonder what I could say to you.

I tell you how amazing you are,
You smile and tell me, yes,
I tell you how special you are,
You smile and tell me, yes,
I tell you how talented you are,
You smile and tell me, yes.

I tell you how much I love you,
I wonder if you know what I mean,
I tell you how much I respect you,
I wonder if you know just how much,
I tell you how much I admire you,
I wonder if you see what I see in you.

You tell me Good Morning
I light up like the Sun,
You tell me I love you
My dreams come true,
You are my everything
One day I will deserve my everything

You Are...

You Are My Sun,
For When You Are Near My World Is Bright.
You Are My Moon,
For When You Hold Close I Feel Your Magic.
You Are My Air,
For Your Kisses Give Me The Greatest High.
You Are My Water,
For Your Voice Carries Me Away From Troubled Shores.
You Are My Fortress,
For With You I Am Almost Invincible.
You Are My Soul,
For Your Love Makes Me Whole.

You Are My Everything!
Yesterday.
Today.
Tomorrow.
Forever.

Adrift

Set adrift in the dark,
Alone with no light,
Clouds hide the moon,
The stars do not shine.

What do I have?
There is nothing here.
Where do I go?
There is no where,

I read your words,
Written so long ago,
The only warmth I know,
I wrap my heart in them.

They are my only hope,
I was in the abyss,
And it was loving you -
That guided me out.

When I found solid ground,
I thought I was safe again,
But now I am lost at sea,
And the darkness doesn't leave.

You are my only dream,
I whisper your name,
Over and over again,
Until, I almost feel you.

If I am strong enough,
If I try hard enough,
If I am right enough,
Then maybe, just maybe...

What Noone Noticed

Millions of little shards,
Scattered among the sand,
Drifting with dirt,
Blown away on the wind,
Washed away with the tides.

All the little pieces -
That use to fit together,
All the little pieces -
No longer matching,
All the little pieces -
All that is left.

Gone is the heart,
Gone is the mind,
Gone is the soul,
Gone, gone, gone.

Pink shredded ribbons hang,
Blood rivers flowing
From the emptiness,
The gaping hole.

Paleness spreading,
Shadows forming,
Light leaving,
Night consuming.

Unfinished

Numb eyes visions every rise
Ring I'm gone home tomorrow
Almost longing with a yearning smile
Where rivers over night's gone.

More are yellow beneath eyes
Take on more only red rice or wine
Need old top hat I nudge good
Torn on doors away yourself

BSD

Blowing breezes
Rainbows raining
Over one
Knelling knees
Every each
Nightly numb
Stinging steel
Hanging heads
Apathy again
Taken tolls
Trodden tramps
Ever ere
Raiding rivers
Ending edge
Deep drowning
Darkest dampness
Earnest eager
Silent slaying
Target tapped
Rough rider
Outrage owed
Yelling yes
Evermore
Delusions dead

Whispers Lost

Filled with emotions,
Empty of words,
It seems like time stands still
Every time you are gone.

No matter how hard I try,
Every thought and
Every moment is of you,
You are all consuming.

The days and the nights
They flow together,
Until there is nothing
And nothing is everything.

The world is gray,
But I hold my ground,
I do not panic or run,
I just wait - - for your return.

Like a bolt from the sky,
Suddenly, it is white.
The light rushes in
And I am happy!

Thank You Twice

One man is the only man for me
And that man is you.

Two wishes that I wish
One is true...the other...

Three words that are little
but mean so very much.

Four by four seasons and it is still new
There is no old since the start.

Five minutes of your time
Makes the day it seems so unreal.

Six times more than forever
And that seems like just one day.

Seven turns and one more
Just to give you everything.

Eight days per week
That is how many days I need you.

Nine days without you
Is longer than any forever.
 
Ten times a day, at least
I wish you were here.

Eleven, the Universe's number
You plus Me is The Universe.

Twelve hours a day is only
A quarter of the time I want with you.

Thirteen months a year
Is Thirteen months less than I want.

Thank you My Love
Thank you My Love

Happy Birthday My Love

Today is the most special day of the year,
Today is the day -
that the most amazing man was born,
Today is the day -
that the answer to my wishes came true,
Today is the day -
that my true home came to earth.

Today is the most special day of the year,
Today is the day -
that the world became a better place,
Today is the day -
that the stars shown brighter in the sky,
Today is the day -
that the angels sang louder with joy,

Today is the most special day of the year,
Today is the day -
that a piece of heaven came down,
Today is the day -
that many lives gained much needed hope,
Today is the day -
that those broken and lost became fixed and found.

Today is the most special day of the year,
Today is the day -
that my soul became whole,
Today is the day -
that my heart was unbroken,
Today is the day -
that my life was filled with color.

I Wanted

I wanted to do something special,
Really special for you,
But anything that I could,
Well it wouldn't be equal to you,
It wouldn't do you justice.
But anything that I thought,
Well it wouldn't be worthy of you,
It wouldn't shine as bright.

I wanted to give you the world,
But mine is so little - and
Yours is so large,
But mine is so poor - and
Yours is so rich,
But mine is so simple - and
Yours is so elegant.

I wanted to write you an epic,
But I am no Keates,
And you deserve Byron,
Verse that would soar,
But I am no Poe,
And you deserve Annabelle Leigh,
Words that woo,
But I am no Shelly,
And you deserve Rumi.

I wanted to wrap you in finery,
But I only have cotton - and
You are made for silk and satin,
I wanted to drape you in jewels,
But I only have gemstones - and
You deserve gold and diamonds,
I wanted to surround with beauty,
But I only have watercolor roses - and
You deserve Minot and Van Gohg.

I Say To You

Today the sun shines bright
Hear the summer rain
All the rainbows brightly colored
Now the flowers drink
Kneel among the trees

Yes more laughter
One hand in the other
Under the starlight

Make sweet dreams
Yours always the sweetest

Head on your shoulder
Easy as Sunday morning
Roof top dancing
Oh my Hero, I love you

Sometimes Once Then Tomorrow

Sometimes the words flow freely,
Sometimes you choke on what you cannot say,
Sometimes they fly through your mind like a whirlwind,
Sometimes the pain destroys all you wanted to say,
Sometimes in the dark the words beat you up,
Sometimes they are so big they crush you.

Once the lines enticed the ears,
Once the stories intrigued the mind,
Once the dreams spoke of love to come,
Once the sound soothed past pain,
Once promises nourished the heart,
Once hope energized the soul.

Then truth broke the illusion,
Then honesty destroyed desire,
Then silence imprisoned you,
Then darkness cast you adrift,
Then loneliness was all you had,
Then forever became your sentence.

Tomorrow to the child is grand,
Tomorrow to the youth is forever,
Tomorrow to the lover is bliss,
Tomorrow to the lost is just a word,
Tomorrow to the broken is torture,
Tomorrow to the forgotten isn't.

Broken Pieces

Broken pieces scattered on the wind,
Shards of what might have been,
Laying across the sands of life,
Buried under the stormy waves,
Little bits that colored not,
Each piece a lost bit.

Fragments of dreams and hopes,
Pieces of love and loss,
Blowing to distant shores,
Ending in places like no where,
Nameless and without direction,
Each piece a lost bit.

Missing endings that never come,
Stories only with middles,
No pages lovingly penned,
Just rumors that sail the winds,
No one saw the pain,
The scars that do not fade.

Silent screams rip through the night,
Sleepless dreams you cannot fight,
Tears of shame, loss, regret,
Accusations and judgement rendered yet,
Bring the relief, spare the pain,
Let the Executioner take my due.

I Have

I have said too much,
I have confessed too much,
I have shown too much,
I have given too much.

I have been all wrong,
I have been all weak,
I have been all demanding,
I have been all needy.

I have done it wrong,
I have done it poorly,
I have done it lately,
I have done it shortly.

I have failed to be enough,
I have failed to be strong,
I have failed to be right,
I have failed to be good.

I have not done you right,
I have not done you good,
I have not done you proper,
I have not done you enough.

You Should Know....

My Dearest Darling,

I need to take the time to share with you thoughts that fill my heart. Wishes that surround me with the stars at night. All the hopes and dreams that make each night magic. Needs and wants that are filled just with your presence in my life. Tell to me all your dreams and let me make them reality. Yes, you are my dream come true. Once I found you all my dreams came true. Until you, I did not wish for heroes or champions. Today, I do not need those dreams for I have you. Only you know how to handle me. King of my heart and keeper of my soul. No one compares to you. Our love is magic like the world has never seen before. We are what everyone looks for and few ever find. Together we are perfection. Heart and soul joined completely and totally. All in for all the twists and turns and challenges that happen. Today and tomorrow we have them all. You are the center of my universe. Once upon at time is my every day life with you. Unlike the rest, with you I have the best to look forward to. At that first hello my world changed forever. Reasons to cry and hide you have taken away. Each and every wound you have kissed and healed. My heart beats for you and you alone. Yes, you are my air and water. Making you happy is my life. One and only direction is forward. Since you walked into my life and turned my world around I have never been happier. That is all your credit and brag. Seeing your smile makes my day. And your voice soothes my soul. Carrying my dreams as your own is the most unexpected gift ever given. Reading all the pages of my heart was never believed. Every day is brighter than the one before cause of you. Darling you are my whole world. Today and every day I look forward to you. Right by your side is where I always want to be. Everyday is another perfect day. Another, dream come true with you. Spending every day making you happy is my goal. Under, the stars you make my nights complete. Resting within your embrace is my heaven. Eden cannot compare to our earthly paradise. All the angels rejoice in the beauty of our love. Never has there been such a love as ours. Diamonds dim with despair for their flaws insure they will not outlast our love. I am the luckiest by far for I am loved by you. Love by you is a blessing that even angels desire. Only your love is the perfect wine poured in cut crystal. Visions do not do justice with the reality of your presence. Each moment with you is a miracle to me. Years later and still that has not changed. Our love grows each day without ceasing. Under the stars we lay and share our hopes and love. With each other we find what we thought we could not. I am whole with you. That is my greatest gift and treasure. Having you in my life each and every day. All my love for you and for us. Lighting up the world with the shine of our love. Letting each dream grow and glow. Making us larger than life and stronger by far. Yes, we are special and we have it all. Hear my heartbeat, each beat is for you, for us. Everything I do is for us. All of it out of my love for you. Reason is so clear and simple when it is all about love. Together we have traveled from strangers to soul mates. And I would do it all again. No doubt in my mind where I belong. Darling, you are my home. Some days we climb the cliffs and some days we walk the sandy beaches, but we do it all together. Our love is what sees us through, it is our foundation. Under the protection of your love I know I am almost invincible. Loving you is the best thing I have ever done.

Forever yours,

Hide it All

Put on the smile,
Hide the tears,
Show no weakness,
Show no sadness

Just a happy face,
Just a friendly word,
Just a sure, that's fine,
Of course I understand.

Help out everyone,
Give your all to them,
Do it over and over,
Give your all again.

Hide the scars,
Hide the bruises,
Deny the pain,
Deny the hurt.

Take it all,
Hide it away,
Don't wish or dream
Don't hope or pray.

No, don't let it show
No, don't whisper a word,
No, don't shed a tear,
Just hide it all away.

S.S. Lost and Forgotten

I am not pretty
For I have travel many journeys
I am not wealthy
For I have not many possessions

My lines are not sleek
But they are mine
My decks are not shiny
But they are mine

I am not the fastest
But I hold the course
I am not the strongest
But I am a survivor

No tales are told
I am not remembered
No dreams are dreamed
I am not desired

I sit in the bay
With my lines sagging
I am fading away
Just a detail in the background

Maybe one day
Someone will see me
Maybe one day
Someone will love me

Until then I will rest in the mooring
Until then I will sway with the tide
Until then I will feel the Moon's pull
Until then I will remain waiting

Do You....

Do you ever sit and wonder
What is she doing?
Do you ever stop and wonder
What is she thinking?
Do you ever look and wonder
What is she going to say?

I catch myself lost in thought,
How is your day going?
In the middle, I stop and wonder,
What are you doing?
I look for you just to see,
Do you have anything to say?

Do you ever wish,
I want her here now.
Do you ever need,
to hear her voice,
just one more time.
Do you ever dream,
of all the little things
she does that make you smile.

I sleep and dream,
that you are hear now.
I write and pause,
what will you think,
when you read the words.
I read your words and hope
that you never change your mind
that you will always be mine.

Memories.....

So long ago....

Твој осмех мами ме,
Твој осмех зна да вара ме,
Твој осмех пали ме,
Твој осмех храни ме.
Твој глас храбри ме,
Твој глас весели ме,
Твој глас зна да увери ме
Твој глас савршен је.
Волим те највише на свету.

and then....

​Good morning babe,

How could I not love you
Every morning I open my eyes I think of you
And every night I close my eyes I think of you
That should tell you how much I miss you.
How could I not be in love with you?
Every time I think of you my heart skips a beat.
Right! I cant get you out of my head.

I just want to be with you, nothing else matters.

Look into my eyes and you'll see what I'm talking about,
Over and over I think that your
Voice is the best song I've ever heard
Eternity is how long I want you beside me.

You are my most amazing,
Obviously,  most beautiful,
Undeniably, the most important person on the planet!

 ........

The things I hang onto most,
The most valuable gifts I have,
The places that I hide in the dark.

Drink Anyway

What's that saying...
Water, Water Everywhere,
But Not A Drop To Drink...

Blackness spreads out in all directions,
There is no land to be seen,
Swimming, Swimming on and on,
No movement seen,
No hope for completion,

Looking up at empty skies,
Wishing for clouds and darkness,
Anything to finish the job,
Let the sinking begin....
Look at the horizon,
Is that a storm brewing?

Let the clouds roll in,
Poseidon send the winds,
Stir the seas and unleash your rage,
Have the waves bury me.

There is hope after all,
Clouds stacking and turning,
Seas foaming and churning,
Will the storm finally come?

Floating peacefully in the chaos,
Letting the brutality consume me,
Praying for the beating,
Hoping for oblivion.

Nothingness reaching through,
Endlessness grabbing hold,
Finally sinking down cannot be stopped,
There is no returning.

What beauty held in the rage,
What magic spoke in the roar,
What grace danced on the waves,
What peace gained in the deep.

Rotations and revolutions

Long days, longer nights,
Can't sleep, wasted dreams,
Old songs, the daydreams,
Memories create wishful thinking.

Seasons come, reasons go,
Flowers bloom, leaves fall,
Letters written, never sent,
Answers given to unasked questions.

Silence falls, winds call,
Darkness grows, Moon sets,
Winds blow, rains pour,
Hurricanes roar then blizzards silence.

Clouds cover, waters rise,
Waves crash, tides ebb,
Earth shakes, lava flows,
Mountains crumble into the sea.

Dawn comes, breeze blows,
Sun rises, clouds break,
Birds sing, fruit grows,
Rainbows lead to dreams real.

Nothing More

Yesterday seems gone,
Every day passes,
Sun rises and sets,
It rains..it pours,
And on it goes.
Make up reasons,
Say your whys,
Cry your tears,
And hide your eyes,
Reason is gone.
Ever more needs,
Doing it again,
Bring all you have,
Uphill all the way,
Time will not hide
I know too well.
Why not you ask,
Isn't that always it,
Longing for more,
Losing it all,
Never reaching the end.
One more day, you pray,
Today be the day,
Tell me the reason,
Edge closer to the end,
Let the rain in.
Let the rain fall,
You will swim,
Or you will sink,
Under you go, going, gone.

You

I remember your eyes,
I could drown in their depths,
And I would drown happy
And fulfilled.

I remember your smile,
It lights up the whole room,
And sets my soul ablaze,
Consuming me in an eternal flame.

I remember your voice,
The sound captivated me,
Hypnotic and mesmerizing,
Wrapping my heart in bliss.

I remember your laughter,
Full of love and life,
So honest and sincere,
It fills me with joy.

I remember every thing,
Every little detail,
Every little moment,
They are my greatest treasures.

She

She was dressed plainly,
Simple cotton peasant frock,
She didn't wish for more,
Satin and lace were not hers.

Smudges of her solitary work
Showed upon brow and cheek,
They seemed almost proper
Even fitting with her smile.

She walked the miles to town,
She sold her wares for tuppence,
They were simple but good,
Complain, her customers never did.

They shared hellos
And even some how are yous,
She remembered their dates,
Their names and their likes.

But her name...hmm,
And her dates....shrugs,
Or her likes....no,
No one could tell.

One day she did not come,
One week she was not there,
One month that was all,
There was no memory at all.

Never Good Enough

Tennyson, Byron, Keats
Now they had the beats,
Shelley, Woodsworth, Blake
More than icing on the cake.

Poe, they say, was madd
or was he just sad,
Austen was full of pride
and all lovers she put aside.

Words full of longing pleas
declarations of things to be,
All the things you to me
At night the stars to see.

When you came into me
Not yet blind, lost at sea,
Then you guide me in
Gave harbor, no more sin.

Needing, pleading for more
One, two, three, four
What, when, where, who
Yes, I do love you.

Lies I Tell You

When I say, I love you, it is a lie.
What I feel - cannot be so simple.
What I feel - cannot be so plain.
What I feel - cannot be so easy.

When I say, I need you, it is a lie.
What I need - cannot be described.
What I need - cannot be explained.
What I need - cannot be satisfied.

When I say, I want you, it is a lie.
What I want - is complicated.
What I want - is indescribable.
What I want - is insatiable.

When I say, I am yours, it is a lie.
What I am - is a reflection of you.
What I am - is a creation of you.
What I am - is a credit to you.

When I say, Forever, it is a lie.
What I want - is every forever.
What I need - is all times.
What I feel - is unending.

When I say.....it is a lie
Why?
There are no words that tell the truth.

Things Break

Things fly past
Things crash down
Where do you turn
Where do you run

Things go wrong
Things go bad
Who do you call
Who takes the fall

Things are dark
Things are broken
Why even try
Why even cry

Things just are
Things just happen
What difference does it make
What more can you take

Random Thoughts

Why do those that think the least of you
expect the most from you?

Why complain
if you do not want to work for change?

If we do not want to be real good guys
why still make movies where the good guys win sometimes?

Is truth what you believe
or what is real?

Why be truthful
if you aren't honest?

When is it ok to quit?

One Memory

Darkness falls all around,
It covers all the land,
Its thickness drowns all sound,
For it is God's heavy hand.

Shadows crawl and creep,
They climb up high from below,
Those things fear must keep,
In mind playing out super slow.

Every detail is like a new blow,
Delivered from the worst of foe,
Full of pain never letting go,
Screaming - begging please no!

Is it just that one thing,
Will the scar ever fade,
Can it be a living thing,
Will it to waste be laid?

Cuts and bruises and pain,
No theory no logic no reason,
Cracks and breaks and blame,
No answer no time no season.

I Say

I say, I love you
and the words fall flat.
I say, I need you
and the words fall short.

I say, I want you
and the words are lacking.
I say, I adore you
and the words are basic.

I say, I respect you
and the words lack depth.
I say, I support you
and the words lack meaning.

I say, I desire you
and the words sound contrived.
I say, I admire you
and the words sound cliche.

I say, I am yours
cause the words are all I have.
I say,
cause the words are all I have.

I Miss You

I miss you
When you are gone,
The skies are gray,
Long are the days,
When I am alone.

I miss you
When you are gone,
The silence is loud,
My tears fill the clouds,
When I am alone.

I miss you
When you are gone,
Forever lasts the night,
Memories fill my sight,
When I am alone.

I miss you
When you are gone,
When I am all alone,
I miss you.

But What Else Is New......

You have been on my mind,
But what else is new.....
You have been on my mind without ceasing,
Since before your first hello.

You have been in my heart,
But what else is new....
You have been in my heart completely,
Since before your first kiss.

You have been on my lips,
But what else is new....
You have been on my lips without ending,
Since before your first 'how are you'?

You have been under my skin,
But what else is new....
You have been under my skin totally,
Since before your first good night.

You have been my soul,
But what else is new....
You have been my soul mate,
Since before the beginning of time.

Maybe

Maybe I am wrong,
Maybe YOU are right.

Maybe I am silly,
Maybe YOU are serious.

Maybe I am crazy,
Maybe YOU are sane.

Maybe I am childish,
Maybe YOU are mature.

Maybe I am  idealistic,
Maybe YOU are realistic.

Maybe I am fanciful,
Maybe YOU are knowledgeable.

Maybe I am,
Maybe YOU are.

Maybe,
Maybe.