I Have.....

A place of beauty and delight in which I'm free to wander,
A maze with twists and turns and places to sit and ponder,
My own shelter to protect me from the stormy night,
My own window seat to wish upon the star bright.

This place of mine is magical beyond compare,
It is filled with unconditional love, enough to spare,
The walls are tall and strong and protect me well,
The rooms are warm and cozy my fears they quell.

I Have....

Thank You......

Thank you for your smiles
Thank you for your hugs
Thank you for your kisses
Thank you for your kindness
Thank you for your compassion
Thank you for your thoughtfulness 

Thank you for Good Mornings
Thank you for Good Nights
Thank you for Late Night Calls
Thank you for Surprise Calls
Thank you for Love Letters
Thank you for Wake up Calls

Thank you for listening
Thank you for caring
Thank you for guiding
Thank you for laughing
Thank you for cuddling
Thank you for sharing

Thank you for everything 
all that you do everyday
Thank you for your love
your encouragement and support
Thank you for your security
your protection and trust

Thank you most of all 
for being in my life and 
letting me be in yours.

The One Thing I Always Want......

Hear me when I whisper
Open up my heart
Need to know me
Even in the dark
Stay don't go
Tell me I matter
Yes, to you I matter

No amount of flattery
Only what counts
Make me believe
All the dreams count
Take all I have to give
This is what amounts
Every thing else is nothing
Returning from nothing

Hear me when I whisper
Open up my heart
Wake me in the morning

Make me a dream
Until the darkness comes
Catch me a star
Hold me the darkness comes

I want to know
To feel how it grows
Have the courage
Under your gaze I glow
Releasing the fear
Taking away the darkness
Stealing away with the light

You

Lost in thoughts of you, 
wondering what you are doing, wondering what you are thinking.....
Is your day good or is it bad, are you happy or are you sad,
I think of you sitting with your coffee, going over your to do list
Going through your day, making a difference every where you are,
I know the feelings of those you help, their joy and peace,
I know their hope and relief, and how much you impact their lives.

You are a bright shining star on a dark night, 
you are a ray of sunshine through dark clouds,
you are the hope and strength full of might,
you are safety and security standing proud.

You are full of love and mercy,
You are just and kind,
You are compassion and hope,
You are the deference and defense,
You are astute and articulate,
You are intelligent and gifted.

Day and Night hold Dreams of you.....

Star Light Star Bright I Wish I May I Wish I Might......

Holding hands
Hugs
Smiles
A shoulder to lean on
Long walks
Kisses
Flowers
Arms to hide in
Laughs
Candlelight
Late Night Movies
Cuddling
Surprise Calls
Wishes
Dancing in the rain
Pillow Talk
Dreams
Borrowed hoodies
Secrets
Breakfast In Bed
Sunrise
 

My Dearest Darling Love......

Today I proclaim my love for you.  Heaven is not sweeter than my joy in your presence. Indeed, happiness is flowing freely like rivers of honey. Shinning brighter than the brightest stars in the darkest night is your smile. Keeping watch over me like a champion of ode. I have never been more loved than I am by you. Secrets we keep from the world in our hearts. Secrets we share between each other in the dark. Illusions do not distract us. Seeing the truth in each heart keeps us free. Finding hope within our dreams protected by the other. Ought the world be ours to relish. Rich in adventure and wonder for our pleasure. This path we travel together is our proper path. Holding our own against all odds. Edging out all the doubts of the past, falsely held. Before you everything else has faded from sight. Every other is not even a shadow of a memory under your gaze. Sleep is peaceful and splendid in your arms. Teaching me the wonder that is love and truth is your greatest gift to me. Maybe, just maybe one day I can be for you half of what you are for me. All that is good and wonderful and amazing I find within you. No amount of doubt can cease my love for you. I do love you. Never would I want to be without you in my life. The day would never dawn from the darkest night. Hope would cease to be familiar to me. Every dream would die in sleeplessness. Without you there would be no color. Only shades of gray turning our VanGough world bleak. Rain pouring down, no those are only my tears falling without end. Losing you would be losing me. Doubt me not when I say that you are my breath and beat of my heart. 

I love you always.

Summer

Apple pies and blue skies

Kites flying and children laughing
Ice cream double dipped
Sunny days and warm breezes
Smiles meeting and friends greeting

Future brightly dawning
Oreos double stuffed and double dipped
Rides at the fair and picnics in the park

Yes things are grand
Oh we are lucky and we are blessed
Under our own canopy of hope

Stormy Day

Waves crashing
Heart pounding
Grey and black above
Grey and black below

Winds whipping 
Rain slicing
Hot and cold outside
Hot and cold inside

Clouds rolling
Tides flowing
Ebbs and eddies morning 
Ebbs and eddies evening

Hands gripping
Hair whipping
Cliff edge looming
Cliff edge calling

Tears streaming 
Lips trembling
Heart's cry screaming
Heart's cry ceasing

Hope fleeing
Dreams dying
Soul source bleeding
Soul source fading

If I couldn't be me with you.....

If I couldn't be me with you,
I wish to have been a cotton plant
grown and cultivated
to be the finest thread of Egyptian cotton,
dyed your favorite shade of your favorite color.
To be spun into the strongest softest thread,
woven into sheets that wrap around you each and every night....
keeping your dreams safe
surrounding you with love
The nights with you would be the most perfect
I could imagine or hope for.
I would be the envy of every angel in the heavens,
to be able to be so close to you
to feel your skin
to bask in your warmth,
not even heaven could compare to you.

From A to Z

Adoration is what fills me
Beside You I can be still
Compassion is how You react
Delightfully in awe is my state
Energy positively flows from You
Forging new ideas and options
Gaining strength in Your shadow
Home is not a place
It is how you feel
Just as reality
Keeps me tied
Limiting my movement
My minds forges ahead
Not minding the pull of the ties
Ore the distance
Pulling, pulling pulling me ever
Quitting never
Raising my eyes to You
Seeking Your light
Toward You I reach
Ultimately climbing to my desire
Vessel of my dreams
X marks You as my spot
You are magical
Zealous in You I am

Digging in the Archives of my Randomness.......

Part Three

Ok so I told you that I would think about what direction I was going to take and let you know.
Well, I think what I will do is give you the idea without spilling the beans so to speak.
I was, hell I am, somewhat intimidated by the idea of character development and even to a degree setting set-up makes me antsy. How much is too much and how little is too little? And either one can make the story really bad. So I thought that I would do something that would put the emphasis more on the dialogue than on the characters or setting.
For right now the setting will be one location — just a room, but you may not be able to pick up on that initially.
And the characters will be more like background noise — it will be more their dialogue that creates them, or the dialogue of others. Some characters will only be players because they are the topic of the dialogue at that point.
So we will have to see how this goes, the intent is to show some humor while addressing serious issues. There will be some randomness to the direction but that is intentional. My disclaimer up front is that this is National Novel Writing Month — Novel meaning a work of fiction — fiction meaning not real
Ok, I will be right back and we will get started………..
so did you miss me? of course not, because for you I wasn’t even gone.
I wonder would you have missed me if you were sitting here and saw me leave the room?
Probably not, why would you, what would there really be to miss, just another body, just another nobody, just another place holder. It is truly ironic that some people very sincerely and truly believe that the world revolves around them, that we would all be lost without them, that they really make our day, hell our life better just by their presence. And those same people are always totally and completely amazed, even crushed when we do leave their presence, when we — the nobodies — walk outta their lives. How can we do something like that? What are we thinking? Are we really that stupid? Do we not know how lucky we were to be chosen to be their follower, their door mat, their toy, even their punching bag?
Of course they are only responsible for their good actions, anything mean or abusive or destructive was all our fault. Their lies, their cheating, their drinking, their manipulation, their flaws, their whatever somehow all of it was our fault — for someone so perfect has no flaws of their own!
So no, not that you are that person, but you did not miss me when I was gone. And that is ok, I did not miss you while I was gone either. So while I should not be hurt over your insensitivity, you expect some explanation as to why I didn’t miss you……hum, maybe you are that person.
But, you have a different name, the color of your eyes are different, the sound of your voice is different, you smell different, you feel different, yet, the words are the same, the lies are the same, the actions are the same, no you are not that person, but you are just like that person.
“Here we go, round 2. How can someone with a gensis IQ be such an idiot? What is it about me that is, is …..I don’t know? I guess if I knew maybe I could prevent this mess.
Well, I know how to prevent from now on. It is not going to happen again. There will be NO MORE, I tell you. I won’t do this again. I’m done. Maybe a one night stand, maybe a short hot fling, but no more long term anything.
You know what I just do not get, what is so hard about being honest? Why not just say ‘these are the things that I want from you. And these are the things that I am willing to give you.’ ? And if the terms are agreeable to both parties then enjoy it, have fun, see where the ride goes. But if it is not then just shake hands and go your separate ways. No harm, no foul.
Why do people insist on being with people that they don’t like, that they don’t care about, that they have no connection with? I like football, but I want to be with someone who thinks the sport is stupid and is going to yell at me every time that I watch a game. I hate exercise, but I am going to fall for a gym rat. I gotta have my meat and potatoes, but that vegan is the one for me. I only want sex once a week, and then with the lights off and missionary style only, so I am going to ask the nympho to move in with me.
If that is normal, no wonder I need therapy!! If that is sane, no wonder I am considered crazy!!”
“Is that what you think? Do you think that you are crazy?”
“How honest do you really want me to be?”
“Well, that is up to you, but for this to work, you are going to have to be honest with yourself.”
“Oh, I think I am very honest with myself. I think that such honesty is how I can see the stupidity around me that the rest of the world seems to ignore.”
“And what stupidity is it that you see, that the rest of us ignore?”
“Wow, now I know why you charge by the hour. Just answering that question alone will keep you in business for the next year.”
“So is that part of the stupidity that you think the rest of us ignore? The fact that I charge by the hour?”
“Well, no but now that you mention it, it does seem kinda stupid that you charge by the hour, yet we are only in here for 50 minutes. So I get jipped 10 minutes and you get a 10 minute bonus. So shouldn’t you charge for 50 minute blocks or charge by the minute? But then again, you would still get the 10 minute bonus, because you would not lower your rates by one sixth, you simply divide your hour rate by 50 minutes. See that is part of the problem, we as a society measure every thing by money or material compensation.
Doctors do not become doctors to help people, they are in it for the money. Lawyers are not in it for truth and justice, they are in it for the money. Even shrinks, are in it for the money. Money, money, money. Do you realize that I can take all your money and all the things that your money bought you and light a match to them and they will be gone? Then where will you be? What will you have left? How will you define yourself then?”
“How do you define yourself, Laura?”
“I don’t.”
“Why not?”
“Why should I? To steal from William, ‘that which we call a rose by any other name would smell as sweet.’. And there is always, ‘beauty is in the eye of the beholder’. So, how I define myself is merely a relative perception of physical features, abstract context, and distorted visions.”
“So if I ask, ‘who is Laura’, what would you reply?
“Depends.”
“Depends on what?”
“Depends on who is asking, what they are looking for, why they want to know.”
“I am asking.”
“You know who Laura is.”
“Do I?”
“Don’t you?”
“You tell me.”
“How do I know what you do or don’t know?”