I Have

I have said too much,
I have confessed too much,
I have shown too much,
I have given too much.

I have been all wrong,
I have been all weak,
I have been all demanding,
I have been all needy.

I have done it wrong,
I have done it poorly,
I have done it lately,
I have done it shortly.

I have failed to be enough,
I have failed to be strong,
I have failed to be right,
I have failed to be good.

I have not done you right,
I have not done you good,
I have not done you proper,
I have not done you enough.

You Should Know....

My Dearest Darling,

I need to take the time to share with you thoughts that fill my heart. Wishes that surround me with the stars at night. All the hopes and dreams that make each night magic. Needs and wants that are filled just with your presence in my life. Tell to me all your dreams and let me make them reality. Yes, you are my dream come true. Once I found you all my dreams came true. Until you, I did not wish for heroes or champions. Today, I do not need those dreams for I have you. Only you know how to handle me. King of my heart and keeper of my soul. No one compares to you. Our love is magic like the world has never seen before. We are what everyone looks for and few ever find. Together we are perfection. Heart and soul joined completely and totally. All in for all the twists and turns and challenges that happen. Today and tomorrow we have them all. You are the center of my universe. Once upon at time is my every day life with you. Unlike the rest, with you I have the best to look forward to. At that first hello my world changed forever. Reasons to cry and hide you have taken away. Each and every wound you have kissed and healed. My heart beats for you and you alone. Yes, you are my air and water. Making you happy is my life. One and only direction is forward. Since you walked into my life and turned my world around I have never been happier. That is all your credit and brag. Seeing your smile makes my day. And your voice soothes my soul. Carrying my dreams as your own is the most unexpected gift ever given. Reading all the pages of my heart was never believed. Every day is brighter than the one before cause of you. Darling you are my whole world. Today and every day I look forward to you. Right by your side is where I always want to be. Everyday is another perfect day. Another, dream come true with you. Spending every day making you happy is my goal. Under, the stars you make my nights complete. Resting within your embrace is my heaven. Eden cannot compare to our earthly paradise. All the angels rejoice in the beauty of our love. Never has there been such a love as ours. Diamonds dim with despair for their flaws insure they will not outlast our love. I am the luckiest by far for I am loved by you. Love by you is a blessing that even angels desire. Only your love is the perfect wine poured in cut crystal. Visions do not do justice with the reality of your presence. Each moment with you is a miracle to me. Years later and still that has not changed. Our love grows each day without ceasing. Under the stars we lay and share our hopes and love. With each other we find what we thought we could not. I am whole with you. That is my greatest gift and treasure. Having you in my life each and every day. All my love for you and for us. Lighting up the world with the shine of our love. Letting each dream grow and glow. Making us larger than life and stronger by far. Yes, we are special and we have it all. Hear my heartbeat, each beat is for you, for us. Everything I do is for us. All of it out of my love for you. Reason is so clear and simple when it is all about love. Together we have traveled from strangers to soul mates. And I would do it all again. No doubt in my mind where I belong. Darling, you are my home. Some days we climb the cliffs and some days we walk the sandy beaches, but we do it all together. Our love is what sees us through, it is our foundation. Under the protection of your love I know I am almost invincible. Loving you is the best thing I have ever done.

Forever yours,

Hide it All

Put on the smile,
Hide the tears,
Show no weakness,
Show no sadness

Just a happy face,
Just a friendly word,
Just a sure, that's fine,
Of course I understand.

Help out everyone,
Give your all to them,
Do it over and over,
Give your all again.

Hide the scars,
Hide the bruises,
Deny the pain,
Deny the hurt.

Take it all,
Hide it away,
Don't wish or dream
Don't hope or pray.

No, don't let it show
No, don't whisper a word,
No, don't shed a tear,
Just hide it all away.

S.S. Lost and Forgotten

I am not pretty
For I have travel many journeys
I am not wealthy
For I have not many possessions

My lines are not sleek
But they are mine
My decks are not shiny
But they are mine

I am not the fastest
But I hold the course
I am not the strongest
But I am a survivor

No tales are told
I am not remembered
No dreams are dreamed
I am not desired

I sit in the bay
With my lines sagging
I am fading away
Just a detail in the background

Maybe one day
Someone will see me
Maybe one day
Someone will love me

Until then I will rest in the mooring
Until then I will sway with the tide
Until then I will feel the Moon's pull
Until then I will remain waiting

Do You....

Do you ever sit and wonder
What is she doing?
Do you ever stop and wonder
What is she thinking?
Do you ever look and wonder
What is she going to say?

I catch myself lost in thought,
How is your day going?
In the middle, I stop and wonder,
What are you doing?
I look for you just to see,
Do you have anything to say?

Do you ever wish,
I want her here now.
Do you ever need,
to hear her voice,
just one more time.
Do you ever dream,
of all the little things
she does that make you smile.

I sleep and dream,
that you are hear now.
I write and pause,
what will you think,
when you read the words.
I read your words and hope
that you never change your mind
that you will always be mine.

Memories.....

So long ago....

Твој осмех мами ме,
Твој осмех зна да вара ме,
Твој осмех пали ме,
Твој осмех храни ме.
Твој глас храбри ме,
Твој глас весели ме,
Твој глас зна да увери ме
Твој глас савршен је.
Волим те највише на свету.

and then....

​Good morning babe,

How could I not love you
Every morning I open my eyes I think of you
And every night I close my eyes I think of you
That should tell you how much I miss you.
How could I not be in love with you?
Every time I think of you my heart skips a beat.
Right! I cant get you out of my head.

I just want to be with you, nothing else matters.

Look into my eyes and you'll see what I'm talking about,
Over and over I think that your
Voice is the best song I've ever heard
Eternity is how long I want you beside me.

You are my most amazing,
Obviously,  most beautiful,
Undeniably, the most important person on the planet!

 ........

The things I hang onto most,
The most valuable gifts I have,
The places that I hide in the dark.

Drink Anyway

What's that saying...
Water, Water Everywhere,
But Not A Drop To Drink...

Blackness spreads out in all directions,
There is no land to be seen,
Swimming, Swimming on and on,
No movement seen,
No hope for completion,

Looking up at empty skies,
Wishing for clouds and darkness,
Anything to finish the job,
Let the sinking begin....
Look at the horizon,
Is that a storm brewing?

Let the clouds roll in,
Poseidon send the winds,
Stir the seas and unleash your rage,
Have the waves bury me.

There is hope after all,
Clouds stacking and turning,
Seas foaming and churning,
Will the storm finally come?

Floating peacefully in the chaos,
Letting the brutality consume me,
Praying for the beating,
Hoping for oblivion.

Nothingness reaching through,
Endlessness grabbing hold,
Finally sinking down cannot be stopped,
There is no returning.

What beauty held in the rage,
What magic spoke in the roar,
What grace danced on the waves,
What peace gained in the deep.

Rotations and revolutions

Long days, longer nights,
Can't sleep, wasted dreams,
Old songs, the daydreams,
Memories create wishful thinking.

Seasons come, reasons go,
Flowers bloom, leaves fall,
Letters written, never sent,
Answers given to unasked questions.

Silence falls, winds call,
Darkness grows, Moon sets,
Winds blow, rains pour,
Hurricanes roar then blizzards silence.

Clouds cover, waters rise,
Waves crash, tides ebb,
Earth shakes, lava flows,
Mountains crumble into the sea.

Dawn comes, breeze blows,
Sun rises, clouds break,
Birds sing, fruit grows,
Rainbows lead to dreams real.

Nothing More

Yesterday seems gone,
Every day passes,
Sun rises and sets,
It rains..it pours,
And on it goes.
Make up reasons,
Say your whys,
Cry your tears,
And hide your eyes,
Reason is gone.
Ever more needs,
Doing it again,
Bring all you have,
Uphill all the way,
Time will not hide
I know too well.
Why not you ask,
Isn't that always it,
Longing for more,
Losing it all,
Never reaching the end.
One more day, you pray,
Today be the day,
Tell me the reason,
Edge closer to the end,
Let the rain in.
Let the rain fall,
You will swim,
Or you will sink,
Under you go, going, gone.

You

I remember your eyes,
I could drown in their depths,
And I would drown happy
And fulfilled.

I remember your smile,
It lights up the whole room,
And sets my soul ablaze,
Consuming me in an eternal flame.

I remember your voice,
The sound captivated me,
Hypnotic and mesmerizing,
Wrapping my heart in bliss.

I remember your laughter,
Full of love and life,
So honest and sincere,
It fills me with joy.

I remember every thing,
Every little detail,
Every little moment,
They are my greatest treasures.

She

She was dressed plainly,
Simple cotton peasant frock,
She didn't wish for more,
Satin and lace were not hers.

Smudges of her solitary work
Showed upon brow and cheek,
They seemed almost proper
Even fitting with her smile.

She walked the miles to town,
She sold her wares for tuppence,
They were simple but good,
Complain, her customers never did.

They shared hellos
And even some how are yous,
She remembered their dates,
Their names and their likes.

But her name...hmm,
And her dates....shrugs,
Or her likes....no,
No one could tell.

One day she did not come,
One week she was not there,
One month that was all,
There was no memory at all.