It's Not Love

You lock me up
You call it love
You chain me up
You call it duty
You insult me
You thank me
You deny me
You need me

It isn't my promise
It isn't my duty
It isn't my injury
It isn't my trail

You beg for help
You chose your course
You demand assistance
You stayed your course
You claim no control
You kept silent

I didn't get a say
I didn't force your hand
I didn't have a vote
I didn't hold you down

You only see your pain
You use only words
You hide from truth
You shirk obligation
You deny reality
You refuse honesty

First Memory

Shadows climb across the walls
Darkness moves ever closer
Silence pushes in and in
Fear weighs the air down
Is anyone there
Will anyone come

No

The child closes her eyes
Tears will not help
She curls up in a ball
But still the cold is there
Hoping praying wishing
For what
For whom

Nothing

There is no dawn to come
There is no sun to shine down
The air is gray and thick
The clouds do not rise or fade
What is the crime
What was the sin

None

Dispair has conquered all
Even the evil is gone
Still there is no safety
Still there is no hope
What will be tomorrow
Will it be better

Never

How do you live
How do you survive
How do you hope
How do you believe
Is there more some where
Is there some one who cares

No

Dreamtime

I have this dream
just a little one
one that I keep
and hold onto tight
it is not big
it is not shiny
it is not fame or fortune
but it is mine
it is just for me
it gives me hope
it gives me joy
it is my dream
maybe one day
it will be more
but at least for now
I have my dream

Random Thoughts

Where are you?
I miss you
What are you thinking?
You are so smart
Where did you go?
You are so amazing
What are you doing?
You are beautiful
What are you thinking?
I love you

Did you notice me?
Your smile is perfect
Do you see me?
Your eyes capture me
Did you read your card?
Your voice is magic
Do you need me?
Your happiness is mine
Did you get your surprise?
You are my blessing

I wake and wonder,
How are you?
I dress and wonder
How's your day?
I start my day and wonder
Did you read your email?
I drive to work and wonder
What are you doing?
I pause and wonder
Do thoughts of me interrupt your day?

I love you
Do you know how much?
I need you
Do you know what you mean to me?
I admire you
Do you know what you have given me?
I respect you
Do you know all I want for you?
I desire you
Do you know how many levels you touch?

I think
how can I be better to you
I wonder
how can I be enough for you
I pray
for your every dream to come true
I wish
I could give you so much more
I want
you to have the best of everything